18 May 2011
I'm so tired.
I'm so tired with myself, so tired with the cruel world, so tired with everything.
Yet, what choice do i have?

Yes, walk straight. Don't ever stop.
I won't, but i'm just so tired. I don't want to stop, i will not stop, but will anything stop me?
Today's a lousy day...and what about tomorrow? Another rotten day?

Can't imagine what's out there for me, i'm vulnerable to anything, yet i seem to be emotionless. Maybe i should find some way out.
So what? Is anyone going to save me? I'm just drowning...and drowning even further.
I can't stop sinking, but i seem to be able to grab on somehow. I stay semi afloat. What the shit, i'd rather sink and just die.

Sometimes, the water seems harmless after all; it dosen't seem to be choking me...because i'm the one who is struggling and choking myself.